Who Knew?

Who knew that setting up a blog site would be so much work? I approached this with the best intentions and didn't make it very far so I'm going to give it another shot. Some life changes have taken place and I feel that I'm finally in a place to be able to start this journey. I felt so cliche just typing that.

I finally took the plunge and purchased the domain name and published the site. I feel that doing this is kind of like joining a gym. We've all told ourselves that if we actually put money toward something that it will force me to participate in it. I would like to believe this to be true, but then I would be lying to myself. I feel that by doing things like this we really are trying to better ourselves, but it's a matter of what will actually stick. I recently signed up for an online Spanish class, 6 weeks, twice a week, $128. Long story short, I didn't finish the 6 weeks. I did however acquire a large stack of flash cards, gain a few more Spanish words and phrases to add to my meager vocabulary and have developed a form or turrets. Now, every time I know a word or phrase that I can actually speak in Spanish, I yell it out as if I just found gold!

So why is it that some things stick with us, or we stick with them, and some things don't? And why does it seem that the things that are bad for us tend to stick easier that the things that help us improve our lives or be better? Doing good things seems to give us a feeling of goodness inside, a sense of accomplishment, a proud glow. Bad things, give us hangovers and regrets, yet we continue to do them. We also will shamelessly brag about the bad things and very rarely mention the good things we do. We will also reminisce over the bad things while never speaking of the good again. "Remember that time we got so wasted that ____________________?" It's never, "Remember that time we ran a marathon and raised $1000 for the Children's Hospital?" I think that it all boils down to the state of "being cool".

We live in a society of being bad makes us cool or become memorable. For example...

I am not a drug user. I have many friends that are. Nothing hardcore like heroin, more like mushrooms and weed. When I am hanging out with said friends and these drugs are in the mix for the evening, they try and hide it from me. It's the most bizarre thing I've ever been apart of. I don't care what they do or when they are doing it, so I don't understand why the secrecy? I will also not be invited to certain events because I don't partake, therefore I am deemed not cool. I even quit drinking for a while and that was quite strange as well. These people are my friends, but not is situations when doing bad things are involved, according to them. I see it as they have a free Uber! Because of this reminiscent bad behavior is deemed cool, the element of coolness lives longer. Running that marathon will be short lived and remembered for a shorter amount of time.... unless "something happened". Then its longevity is extended, but the good deed that took place becomes secondary because it's not cool enough to make the extension. "Remember that time we ran that marathon and you tripped and fell into the water boy on the sidelines?" The mention of the money raised to help the Children's Hospital becomes voided.

Then again..... maybe it's the people that we surround ourselves with? We'll save that one for another time.